When you feel emotional and negative about your money situation today, wait till you feel more settled to look at it.
You may suffer a financial set back today, and even if you do not, you will feel emotional about money and you will only be able to see your finances in a negative way. Whatever is really going on with your money, set backs are temporary. Wait a while till you feel more emotionally settled and able to deal with this and you may find it's not as bad as you thought.