Snap out of your tendency to wallow in what you have lost in the past, and prepare for a positive surprise.
You cant help thinking about the past today, and especially things you have lost from your life. This nostalgia could turn to wallowing if you are not careful and your mood could turn quite negative and depressed as you convince yourself all is doomed. Let this go, as later on in the day you have a positive surprise coming and you will need to be in a better frame of mind to make the most of this