The main stumbling block between you and the life you want is your time management and organisation.
It's time to really take control of the situation and make things happen, Libra. The main problem you have right now is how you handle your time management. You are going to have to draw up lists and a rota and lay your plans carefully in order to make the most of your time and work effectively. The life you envisage is a real possibility for you if you can organise yourself in the right way.